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I miss california. so much. skyping with my good friends and seeing the view makes me miss california so much more. I miss everything.
I love you, it’s just hard seeing my friends and you get along so well that I have become out of the loop. Yeah, it should be nice to see that happen than them rather hating on you but I still want my girlfriend and my best friend on my side and not against me.
I always feel like a third wheel when I’m around them.
Welcome back. Still in my heart. You believe we aren’t meant to be, while I think otherwise. Until we meet again, my future wifey <3.
At the end of the day, I’ll be okay. I’m going make a list of things to do before I move.
On the upside. As much as I know I’m not over you. And as much as all these people are getting at me, I have put up a wall. Its a good thing because I won’t get hurt anymore. And when I know it’s time to give it my all, I will but until then, I’m not going make the same mistake again. I’m better. I know I was and still am a really good girlfriend :)
Chi town
Chicago please be good to me. Be around my “future” school scared me a little and made me realize how home sick I am.
In other words, my cousin and her girlfriend are going to get me a fake ID for tomorrow’s festivities so let’s so how that goes..
Tonight I’m heading to maggianos for a reservation while listening “it’s in the morning” fuck you things that remind me of her. I’m trying to move on but my heart isn’t quite ready yet. But ive realized you aren’t worth my time and love, I need to give it to someone who will reciprocate it back. Oh maggianos, last time I visited you was your birthday, our anniversary. You have been my favorite Italian restaurant but has become my corridor of hopelessness.
3 to 1 ratio of people in love with you. I cannot compete. Maybe my work here is done.
First day
Happy Halloween!
You ask how I am, you probably already know that I can’t live without you but I’m trying so hard to deal with things without you by my side. I wish you came back. Took everything back you said that night.
Anyways, supposed to be trick or treating with her and her sisters but instead im going drown my sorrows in scary haunted house and hennessy beer pong. Wish me luck!
On the plus side, today’s the first day of P90x. Wish me luck!
Realization
I guess I have to realize, that you’re not coming back. Let me just say, I’m not moving on, I’m going pretend I’m waiting for you, until you realize I’m the one. I will wait until my heart literally cannot say your name anymore. I just want you to chase me.. I hate time and you doing you.
