February 2011
1 post
I
I miss california. so much. skyping with my good friends and seeing the view makes me miss california so much more. I miss everything.
January 2011
2 posts
I love you, it’s just hard seeing my friends and you get along so well that I have become out of the loop. Yeah, it should be nice to see that happen than them rather hating on you but I still want my girlfriend and my best friend on my side and not against me.
I always feel like a third wheel when I’m around them.
December 2010
1 post
Welcome back. Still in my heart. You believe we aren’t meant to be, while I think otherwise. Until we meet again, my future wifey <3.
November 2010
3 posts
At the end of the day, I’ll be okay. I’m going make a list of things to do before I move.
On the upside. As much as I know I’m not over you. And as much as all these people are getting at me, I have put up a wall. Its a good thing because I won’t get hurt anymore. And when I know it’s time to give it my all, I will but until then, I’m not going make the same...
Chi town
Chicago please be good to me. Be around my “future” school scared me a little and made me realize how home sick I am.
In other words, my cousin and her girlfriend are going to get me a fake ID for tomorrow’s festivities so let’s so how that goes..
Tonight I’m heading to maggianos for a reservation while listening “it’s in the morning” fuck you...
3 to 1 ratio of people in love with you. I cannot compete. Maybe my work here is done.
October 2010
12 posts
First day
Happy Halloween!
You ask how I am, you probably already know that I can’t live without you but I’m trying so hard to deal with things without you by my side. I wish you came back. Took everything back you said that night.
Anyways, supposed to be trick or treating with her and her sisters but instead im going drown my sorrows in scary haunted house and hennessy beer pong. Wish me...
Realization
I guess I have to realize, that you’re not coming back. Let me just say, I’m not moving on, I’m going pretend I’m waiting for you, until you realize I’m the one. I will wait until my heart literally cannot say your name anymore. I just want you to chase me.. I hate time and you doing you.
Dead anniversary
Today I realized it was me and my ex’s anniversary. It’s crazy because if things went the way planned, I was supposed to be married at such a young age. I’m pretty glad I didn’t. I mean, it was high school lust. I hate high school but that’s where you experience everything I guess. Ehhh. Well happy five years if we were married! LOL damn shoot me now. Possible versus...
Woke up with a headache. Today’s Thursday. Fuck Thursday. I wish I can wake up from this nightmare already.
chasing.
I really wish you could have chased after me. I did everything for you. I still wish you came back. I’m still here waiting for you to say, I want you back. but yet… you’re not here.
I HATE THIS.
I WANT TO KILL MYSELF.
like anyone would care, no one loves me in this bitter world. I gave all my love to the girl of my future but it just spit back up at me.
ouch.
I...
Disappointed
Im worried about you and although we aren’t the closest of friends anymore, your lifestyle is changing. I wish I can help you and I wish I can be there. But Life’s hard. I wish you the best of luck.
Understatement
I wish you understood how I’m feeling. But just like you, I don’t think I can interpret the words to tell you how I’m feeling.
I believe that I can let you go to the dances under four conditions:
1. I know who your going with, and actually meet them.
2. I see what your wearing.
3. You either chill with me AND whoever afterwards or go home.
4. You cannot go to prom with HER.
...
Impact.
so, today you asked me if you made an impact on my life, and to be honest you did. I AM SERIOUSLY GOING CRAZY RIGHT NOW, and I wouldn’t be going crazy if you didn’t impact my life. So how did you impact my life exactly? Well, let me tell you the ways:
You came into my life so suddenly
and abruptly, not knowing that you and I
would become one. I mean, you had me at hello.
and made...
the idea of love.
I do love the idea of love
Being up above
than any general person
Being someone’s glory
and both share a story
Because that is the idea of love.
When it comes to me and you
I know FOR A FACT I can stay true.
Everyone makes mistakes with regards to you and I.
But that’s why I want to try.
To try to fix this hole we’ve been stuck in.
So we can get out and start where...
stolen.
You say you love me, please me, care about me, wife me.
Yet I see,
Your heart is with another somebody.
Somebody so different, somebody who isn’t me.
What did I do to bring you to get
a simple thought of someone else
in your heart
I thought it was me from the start.
You made a promise you wouldn’t leave.
Yet I’m seeing your back turn away
Seeing you don’t...
its crazy
You know, I never write in this thing, but when I do that means something has been stuck on my mind for a really long time. It has been known that relationships either “make it” or “break it” and to be honest, the relationship that I am in right now seems so hazy. I have so much hope. I love you so much, yet I still am trippin about the things you do on the side. Who you...
September 2010
3 posts
i want you back- collbie calliate(sp)
Time for CHANGE x 2
Throughout our many challenges and our clashing of our heads coming together, I have realized one thing; That there will always be a time where we will always be fighting. We can’t avoid it and whether it is my fault (most of the time) or yours, or just a BIG MISUNDERSTANDING, I know one thing is for sure; that I will always love you. I know we may have our big fights but I know in the end...
Simplicity of Life.
so, I naturally don’t write in this, or publicly I may add, but as time goes on, it is only right to publicly distinguish the factor between my fantasy and reality.
FANTASY: I am living a happy and natural life and in the end, I will forever be sane with the particles of my life that is stood here.
REALITY: Life is always changing and that’s how life goes by.
Happy? quite. Life...
August 2010
1 post
STORY OF MY LIFE
facebook versus tumblr. Natural insanity.